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Hai... Yesterday night my uncle called mi and talk to mi about my parents' problem. He can't come to our place to settle the problem with them, but he called both my parents. My uncle said a lot of things, but i know what he is trying to say. He want mi to talk to my father. But it is quite difficult for mi. Because i've not being talking much to him since secondary three. I don't know it is because of my stubborness or is it because of his "i am your father" attitude or even because of the fact that he break up mi and my boyfriend(last time). All i know that i don't like him, so i don't like to talk to him. Moreover he and my mama are always quarreling and my mama always appears to be the innocent party. I really can't help by hating him!If they can don't quarrel, i don't want them to divorce too. But they just won't stop quarreling! Even my father said that they quarrel at least once in a few days(I even thought it is once every two week!). How can they live together like this? I can't stand it! Nobody can stand this kind of family!
So i tried very hard not to appear infront of him or should i say not to be seen by him. Because i don't know what to say to him. I don't even call him father. We don't chat. Not even a simple chat. Because i can't stand talking to him... i will feel very akward. I can't talk to a man who beat my mama. My parents seldom show any concern to mi. Actually only my mama somehow did. I only know that it took her many days to ask mi to see doctor when i got a fever or flu. Really many days... and after asking that once... no more... =( Sometimes i really am so jealous of my brother. Because my mama will be very concern even if it is only a sore throat. Maybe it is the "zhong nan qing nu" thingy again. Haha... Quite pathetic. Then whenever i go to a friends' place, i will really envy them. Because their parents communicates very well with them and also treat them very good. Sometimes i just wished they are my parents. I know it is stupid... but when you are the one who is left unconcerned... see whether you would feel this way.
All i want is a complete family. Is it too much to ask for? My mother likes to lie so much. Or should i say she got the "skill of denying". Always denying anything that is not in favour of her. But i got eyes to see, my sista got eyes to see, all of us got eyes to see! Whether she is in the wrong or not we all can see. Seriously i felt so stupid. When i heard some of the things from my sista about my parents. Felt so cheated. My mama had being lying for quite some time. Always trying to make us think that she is the innocent party. Why is she doing this? I hate the fact that she is lying to us! Making mi hate my papa. All this while i only know that he beat my mama, and that's all i know whenever they quarrel and fight. She told us that she did nothing and my father just beat her. She said my father got a bad temper and beat her up whenever he drinks. But is it really so? All these years i've been only listening to my mama's one-sided story.
Yesterday, we all had a talk about their problem. All of us, my father, mama, my sista and mi. Only then i really get the chance to know more about their problem. After listening to them, i really can't help but siding my father. I know that my mama likes to lie to gain favour, but i didn't know that she is hiding so much things! And all the problems seemed to start from her. Her attitude, her stubborness, her thinking that "her friends are always right". My father on the other hand, his pride, his inability to control his temper. Seriously during the conversation, my sista and i were siding with my father most of the time. This is because we are only saying the truth. Now they are alright, for the time being. I don't know how long this can last before the next quarrel. Seriously!